Sometimes I'm not sure why I started blogging when I hardly ever post anything new. Well, this is all I could think about doing last night to get frusteration out. This underway has been hard. I was hoping being home for a few weeks would help that, it's only made it worse. It's hard being here where we both grew up, our families are, all of our firsts were, and everything we knew, without him here with me. I have to admit that the previous underways have been fine, obviously I miss him more than I can say, but this one is different. I have always been the strong one during underways, being there for everyone else and not showing my emotions. I can't hide them this time. I'm going through the motions with everything lately, but not feeling anything. I'm not ok with this. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing our family and doing things that I can't do in VA, but it's not the same.
I know this isn't a long post, but I don't feel like writing as much as I thought I wanted to. Oh well, just another day!!