Life Changes

    As most of you know, these last few weeks have been pretty difficult for our family. Yes, Wayne's deoployed and that in itself is difficult at times. Especially when big things happen for any of the three girls. My grandfather passed away just shy of two weeks ago due to cancer. He was such a great man and a huge part of our family. Even with being across the country, I never went more than a week without talking to him and my grandmother. It's hard to call there now knowing that I won't get to hear his voice. My aunt, his daughter, is fighting her own battle with lymphoma.  She's so stong and I know she'll pull through this and get better!
   Through all of this I have come to realize so many things that I'd like to share:

1)    Make each day count. I have always been too "afraid" to try new things, say things that I've wanted to, and be me. Not anymore. We aren't guaranteed tomorrow, so why not make every day a new experience. There are several things that I am terrified to do...... Sing in front of people (not sure why since I loved choir, but I am now).. Ride roller coasters. I have once and the people I rode with, were glad when it ended..lol I freaked out, I don't like knowing that I don't have any control over what it's going to do. I always bite my tongue when people ask my opinion and I don't agree with them. I've always been like that. What's the word for it? oh yeah, I'm a pushover. I want to be able to speak how I feel. Even if it's not what everyone else thinks, God gave us our own minds, personalities, and thoughts for a reason. Why have I been hiding that?

2)     Money is just that...money. Yes, we need it to pay bills, feed and clothe our families, but that's it. Why are we so obsessed to make soooooo much. Yes, it's nice to have a savings and know that it's there when we need it. But, if we're saving everything and not doing anything to have fun, is it really worth it? No. Now, I'm not saying go out and spend it on crap, but live a little. Enjoy the time while we have it. What if we die tomorrow? Can you stand there at the Golden Gates and know that you had the most fun you could in life? Will you regret not doing more?

3)     Love with all you have! I LOVE my husband, daughters, family, and friends, but there is more that I can be doing to show that. Wayne and I wrote our own vows for our wedding. To be honest, neither of us remember what we wrote or what each other wrote. I wish we did. We took a trip this past winter to Disney. Just the two of us, just for a few days. We had so much fun just being a carefree couple. We LOVE being parents, but we needed that time for us. We wrote each other letters with new promises. It was very romantic to read them to each other on the beach of our resort. Why do we only do that for special occassions? Why can't we just write them when we feel like it? Too many people think marriage is disposable anymore. It's not. It's something that is supposed to be for a lifetime.

I can't wait to work on all of these. Life is too short to let it slip away.

                    Embrace it...Enjoy it...Live it